Saturday, February 19, 2011
.:. Responsibility .:.
With great power comes great responsibility...but its responsibility to who?
Xiong ah. That's like the word I've been using alot recently to describe my army life, during the preparation period and actual exercise now. Its all about working, rushing from place to place, from time to time, down to the very last minute, be it for the task or for myself. I guess its just a very stark difference from when I just entered which was the lull period then. But from the grey clouds there's always the sunlight behind it, of which through this I can see the style of work which I put myself through.
I deem myself as the kind that is very...responsible (pardon my "zi lian"ness if it sounds so). I am the kind of person you put me up to something, whether as an in-charge of a whole section of men or as a measily small fry with a beyond simple task (eg like running errands), I will put all my effort into it. Its just the sense of responsibility that I feel when I'm entrusted with work, especially so when I'm in-charge.
The person believes in my capabilities to accomplish the assigned task, so shouldn't I do a good job out of it, or at least to the maximum of my abilities. I will plunge head-in to the task, only with the end goal in mind, not stopping till its reached. I don't know where I get the energy from, but I will just plough through everything. So I can just do and do and do, even if its past mealtimes I will also continue do and do and do. I can send my men in batches to go eat, when I myself still doing all the way. And sometimes, after it all, I am amazed with myself how during the whole chaos I could multi-manage so much stuff in my mind, what goes where, who does what, check progress, report progress and even answer quetions that are not even in my job scope. Like Wow. So yup, though hard, the sense of accomplishment is there :)
But there's another side to this kind of working style. Sometimes I think I work too hard. How should I put this, its like I work so hard its ok for myself, but there are points of time where I feel as if I am imposing onto others, like my superiors. No doubt they did assign me the task (bearing in mind orders came from high high above), but its like my workstyle conflicts with their need to ensure "care for soldiers". For example, my self-imposed delayed mealtimes. I think delayed mealtimes is ok, heck even missig one meal is within my limits, but not within my staff's limits. He must make sure his men eat. So ya, there are times he must remind me to eat, or at times force me to eat, which I think its kinda funny. There was once I kinda had "no" time for bfast, then he got me a kitkat crunchy to eat instead. One of the funniest time was when he said "Dalvin, I bar you from here for 2 hours, go and rest."I look at him and I was like O.o HAHA! Even my section 2IC sometimes ask me to go and rest la. So does this count as responsibility to others.
Am I really working too hard?
Then I started thinking how I got such a workstyle. I realised its not a matter of how, but rather I think I learned from my mum. She's a workaholic at times. She can work and work in the office until dunnoe what time, then come home liao then eat dinner which is even more dunnoe what time liao. On weekends, she can even bring her laptop home to clear emails, then ask her to come out for lunch, she will "orh" but never come out, until you irritate her enough then she will come out and eat. So maybe I take after my mum? Oh ya and before I forget, HI MUM!
Back to the topic. I don't work so hard just for anybody, or rather at least till now I haven't. You need to really respect the commander then you will be willing to put in such efforts to serve them. On this note, I must say I have the best command team Ever. Seriously my Staff and Sir, which is my PWO and PC respectively, are imba nice to us. Its really beyond the nice of normal commanders sia. Like when we work late, they will work with us, and next morn wake up earlier than us. When we stay up to work late my Staff will treat us macs, which is super exp. And how many Staff and Sir can you openly joke and laugh around with them. And how many commanders will help you lay lines in the sun while you sit in the shaded porch for lunch. Seriously super nice to us. Which is why we are all so willing to work for them. No doubt we all do until very "du lan", but its because of them that we do it. That day I was booking out with my senior, and we were saying "If not for our Staff and Sir, we would've all taken status a long time ago." This only shows how important a good command team is to the men.
Super lucky to have gotten into this platoon :)
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