Saturday, January 22, 2011
.:. Relativity of time .:.
I could spend the time thinking of you...
After entering NS, time never seemed to pass so differently than before. I wake up, looking forward to the end of the day, always counting down to the number of days till friday. Then whenever I bookout, I wish for the time to slow down, jus so that I could spend more time of my own. Its because of the awesomeness of the my days out that I can't stop thinking about it in camp.
An hour could be used in various ways. I can use it to walk around camp, hiding from the officers to avoid being arrowed. Then there are my friends who spend the same hour in lectures, accomplishing at least something intellectual and beneficial. Or comparing with the weekends, the 1 hour could be a simple lunch spent in the company of friends. Take nights out for example. Some people could be outside catching up with their girlfriends, others drinking at the chevrons, or like me in bunk enjoying a quiet admin time to recharge.
The same 1 hour, same amount of time, yet how we utilise it allows us to attain different levels of accomplishment, or should I say happiness. There are times when we can't help control how we use the time, but other than that, we can try our best to make the full use of it. Or at least that's how I've been doing things since I entered army. Every minute out of camp is precious, none to be wasted. That's why no matter how short the time to meet GOF is, I will still try my best to be there.
Another way of putting it. Whenever a crush happens, its always kept quiet. Not many people have the courage say it out loud, hence the wait for who knows when. Then because you have the mentality that she/he is your crush, your mind automatically creates this barrier between you 2. You are afraid that anything extra you do will suddenly reveal the secret. Therefore, you shy away. As time goes by, the distance will just gradually increase. That means a couple of years wasted jus like tat. But, if you were able to put it aside, and to treat the special one as just another friend, things might be different. You wouldn't feel the paranoia, nor the stress. You'll jus enjoy the presence, the company.
Though in the end, I know that its easier said than done, as always. Still, time's not to be wasted. Every bit of meeting time, short conversation or even to jus sms each other. But this can't be one-sided to work.
...or holding your hands.
Revealed on [9:55 PM]
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