Thursday, December 23, 2010
.:. Self worth .:.
Self worth, or self's worth.
This post is kinda overdue. Some confidence issues brought about this idea to my head awhile back. But I had too much backlog on my posts, like events post which I prefer to do on the date itself, so I kept this idea till now.
Many a times I've mentioned in my such posts, in this society where now none of us are cavemen (I mean it literally), we depend on social interaction alot. And by doing so we are opening up ourselves for the world to see, for example blogging. Its kinda a vice versa reaction that is going ona a 2-way conduit between you and the society. You let the world see who you are, but you in turn become receptive to the world's opinion as well. Or more commonly known as, following the norm.
Because of this, there are times where I am wondering what determine's whether I am worthy. Worthy to who? My family, friends, society or even to my own expectations? Slowly bit by bit, I start to ponder, what does self worth really imply.
There's 2 ways you can interpret it. Self worth. Meaning how much one is worth (duh), not necessarily monetary wise, but also in terms of social status or in view the strength of relationships formed. So this means that actually your self worth isn't really self worth, but is deived from others. It's not what or how you see of yourself, but actually who you are in other's eyes. How can one improve one's self worth of this aspect. Its mostly kind of very surface level actually. To improve, or to have a high status so to say, a norm would be to dress up well infront of others, or act a certai way to conform to others. But in the end, this self worth isn't really "self" anymore...is it.
You stand by the road, see the cars zooming past. Each time the cars zoom past, you see a brief reflection of who you are, before the car is gone and you can't "see" youself again. Its the same thing. Are you going to let someone else, or something else in this case a car, determine whether you can see who you are?
Then you have the other interpretation. Self's worth, and as it suggests, it actually means your own judgement of yourself. Its a standard of how well you are in tune to the "you" that you want to be. Granted nobody's perfect in ths world, which means no one can actually be the "you" we all have in mind for ourselves, but rather becoming the "you", why not just accept who You really are. There's really no end to comparing to others, for they say the grass is always greener on the other side. No one will ever be satisfied with one's self, but that dosen't mean you can't be satisfied with "not being satisfied". You don't have to live a perfect life to live. Such is the idea I've been trying to adopt recently. I try not to let other's judgement of me affect me, I just want to be happy with myself. Its like singing, I know I can't hit the high notes, so granted I can't sing well, but I enjoy singing and hence I'm satisfied with that :)
Which of the 2 you choose to live your life with its up to you. I'm not going to contradict which i right or wrong, which is acceptable or not, for it would just mean that my opinion of you matters, and its no longer Self's worth.
We might be born into this world crying, but whether we die smiling is up to us...
Revealed on [7:23 PM]
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