Tuesday, November 16, 2010
.:. Don't know .:.
Love at the corner, but I'm at a junction.
Just finished watching a taiwan drama. Not one of the many that I've ever watched (was never into romance shows). I basically watched it for laughter sake, which I'm glad to say it did serve its purpose pretty well. Like all taiwan idol dramas, or all dramas in fact, there's always the element of romance inside. Not I like you means you like me, if not then he likes her but I like him...so and so forth providing an endless list of permutation and combination.
While watching such shows, one tends to find an onslaught of emotions that rush you like a tidal, sometimes overwhelming you. Laughing at the silly entics of the guy trying to please the girl, pissed at how easily the rival can sow dispute the heavenly couple, smitten by the sweet romance that bloom. Its like within that few episodes, you've tasted all the emotions that life has to offer for you. But then u tink about it, in real life, do you get to experience such emotions all within a span of one relationship.
Many times in life, when you're the person in the relationship or trying to be in one, one of the strongest emotion you would be feeling should be anxiety. Say you are in crush, and like many times i've said before, there are too many variables in play for you to be able to happily get a satisfactory answer out. You will under think certain stuff, then panic and overthink. If you were in a relationship, your anxiety issues would most probably stem from trying to make your girl happy. You don't know what you're doing is enough, or even correct to say. All in all, its due to one thing, lack of information. I know this is a generalisation, but its afterall taken from the perspective me, who has 0 experience in the playing field :).
When we watch shows, we are playing the part of the audience, a very lucky by-stander who gets to see all the important bits and pieces of each and every character there is in the story. Therefore we get the whole picture of what's going on. Who likes who, who hates who, who wants to propose to who but is thwarted by who. We know it all. Hence we're always able to laugh and cry along with the show. But in reality, when you're in the picture, things become awhole lot different. Because you dunnoe what's going on. You dunnoe if you really like the girl, if the girl likes you, if she has other suitors etc etc. Its all these anxiety that are brought about because of "not-knowing" that somehow dulls the process into something not as lovely as it is seen protrayed in love dramas. Albeit all you need is a real-life happy ending then you will be living the dream. Otherwise before that, you're like a clueless fly buzzing around, not knowing what's going on.
Like the chinese saying, by-standers see clearest. I show you the drama, you're happy. I throw you into it, you panic. Isn't that the reason why such love dramas are produced, to attract people using the appeal of a wonderful romance, whereby you can be the one who sees-it-all unfolding infront of you.
The sweets will freeze in the fridge, and so shall my heart...
Revealed on [6:16 AM]
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