.:. Line laying .:.
Char bee hoon...
Somewhere, in this blog, I tink i've ever analyzed the reason why I like to watch animes like gundam and kamen rider series (I tink...so much for keeping a blog). But currently I am too lazy to go look through my archives to search for it, so pardon me for my spontaneounity, afterall I like to keep track of my current thoughts.
One thing that such shows always have and is absolutely essentially in their storyline is, the good guys always win. In essence, even though at the times the lead character might get run downed, and you feel really sad or anguished, but somewhere in your heart you know that eventually good prevails. It provides the sense of hope, something that isn't really abundant in the practical society we so lived in today. I especially dun like the sense of "fear", or some might call it alertness, that army tries to instill...it isn't good for the thinking individuals.
Like the laying of electronic cables, the plan is set. Down on the field, sometimes we encounter difficulties, off the plan, good and bad. These we can overcome. Once the destination is reached, we relish in the success of comms. We feel successful, happy. Yet after that high comes a low. The lines we so painfully layed out, planned and recce for, backfires on us, leaving us with an entanglement that really fustrates the mind. And annoys my heart.
Somehow, deep down somewhere, I long for the power, the strength, the sudden burst of faith to keep holding onto the hope. But in the end, is this hope worth embracing? Like the lonely lead i've walked through the times, endured the years of holding on, had my ups which rejuvenates me, and definitely the downs that steals my heart away. I desire, I want, I think, and now I doubt. But I can't help myself.
Like the nekojita I key the codes into the phone, and I fist it onto the belt, ready. Yet the light of completion never flashes in unison...
Revealed on [6:07 AM]
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