Saturday, August 14, 2010
.:. Duo personality .:.
Low morale? Route march!
I tink I will be going nuts soon. I seem to be experiencing a different personality as in camp and at home. The feeling I get about myself once I book in and once I reach home is 2 totally different feelings, hence the title. In camp, I become this guy, who jus follows orders, do things he has to and not because he wants to, and is everyday learning how to take things within his stride. Sometimes I dun even recognize myself in camp, its likes the notion "Who is this guy standing on this very ground in this heavy vest and sweating like nobody's business?"
Then when I am at home, I return to the old normal me, the one which I know I can trust implicitly. I do whatever I wan, show whatever emotions that are true and get to be around people whom I really care about. The stark difference in feeling is seriously appaling, making me really appreciate the nite times I spend at home, really. Everynite at home in bed is golden.
The first thing I do when I get home is to shag off all my army related stuff, literally. I throw the bag in one corner, and even remove my army watch which i am so used to having around my wrist. A symbolism of me out of army, temporarily. But does this mean I totally do not take back anything from army, I guess not. I noe that for now, I do aprreciate times spent with family and friends alot more than I use to. Its not the quantity nor quality, its about knowing they're there for you :)
Revealed on [7:51 AM]
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